It takes a strong heart to love. It takes a stronger heart to continue to love after it has been hurt.

Happy Halloween.

Summary for Wednesday :

Woke up at 7am, prepared everything & send baby to school. Trained home aftermath.
Slept for awhile, & went to Bugis with Sis in the afternoon.. Shopped around & bought 1 top & something.
Sis went home & went to meet Baby at Cityhall, accompanied him to take his pay & trained to Harbourfront, went Vivo shopping. Bought wrapping paper & paper bag from Daiso. Baby ate his dinner & i accompanied him, slack for awhile & 11 plus trained back home.

Summary for Thursday :

Woke up at 12.30pm. Bathe & accompanied Sis to meet her buyer.
Leave house at 3.40pm, Met baby at town. Shopped at Far east, Cine & Heeren. Trained to Harbourfront after shopping. Went to Vivo. Saw some rude ass there. Skipped the part, went to Pets Lover Center, went to see dogs & hamsters. Very adorable. Slacked at Sky Park. Quarreled over something & went home aftermath.

I wanna work & buy m)phosis clear tote bag & flip flop!
2 more posts to 330 posts! :D

CHALET UPDATE, 25 October - 27 October .

First Day

Trained to Pasir Ris at 9pm. Bused in to Downtown. Went in to chalet & put my bag. Very heavy. & went out fetch Huikheng & co in. Ate & BBQ. Walked to arcade around 12am. Walked around the arcade, watched Zhiyang & co play basketball.. After they played, went back to chalet, Talked rubbish & stuffs. Plan to sleep but can't. Watched money no enough 2.

Second Day & Third day

8am went to bathe, & i went to sleep at 8.30am-11.30am. Changed & make up, bused & trained to Khatib mrt station. Met baby there. & trained to Cityhall. Walked to Marina Square, shopped around as baby want to buy his top, can't find. Walked to Suntec, nothing nice there & went back to Marina again. At last he bought his top (:
Went to E-hub, baby bought his clay & we went shopping, nothing much. Walked back to chalet. Watched Money no enough 2 again. Slacked in chalet & we bought dinner back to chalet. Awhile more, Huikheng, Pat's mom, Pat, Julius, Jeeann, KelvinT came, they ate their dinner while baby & me went to buy movie tickets to The Coffin, & the show start at 1.45am. Went to arcade, watched baby play. 12am, walked back to chalet. Huikheng & co watched Money no enough & i lie on baby lap, played DS (:
1.30am, walked to E-hub. & watched movie. Damn scary can, i chua tio alot of time lor. & i held baby hand damn tight. LOL. My first time watching ghost movie what, can't blame. I think my first & last time. Lol. Slept for the last 15 mins & baby woke me up when the show ended. Huikheng & co went home, Calysta & Rayna went to watched High School Musical 3 & i went back chalet with baby. Bathe & watched Water Horse with baby. Watched half way, i wanna sleep. & i kept telling baby i only want lie down, but not sleep at last i slept till 9.30am. Bathed & packed everything, baby send me home & i wanna sleep now. Bye (:

NOTICE :

CBOX LOCKED :D
I'll be staying in chalet on 25-27 October, I'll not be able to update. I'll update when i'm back (:

20 October, Monday

Went to Bugis with Elena. Actually wanna find job, but end up shopping :X
& I bought my belt already. Slacked @ J.CO after shopping at Bugis Street. Slack for few hours. 5.30pm took train to Cityhall & Elena went to interview. Shopped @ Peninsula, nothing much :/ Accompanied Elena wait for her Sis & i trained home.

21 October, Tuesday

Can't sleep properly yesterday night i woke up 3 times. & i finally woke up @ 7am.
Wake baby up @ 7.30am. & Dad bought me breakfast.
Planned to go highlight my hair, but too many people already, so i chose tomorrow. Slacked at home for the whole day. & i'm going to chalet this coming Saturday-Monday (:

22 October, Wednesday

Baby woke me up at 12pm. Went to prepare everything & left house at 2pm.
Took train & bus to Roxy Square, highlighted my hair & trim my eyebrow. Left the salon at 4pm, & went to Parkway, shopped around.
5.30pm, Huikheng called me asked me wanna go Marina Square not. & i agreed.
Bused & Trained to Marina Square. Went to Watson, met them there. Shopped for awhile & off to Suntec. Shopped till around 10pm, & we left Suntec, trained back home.
There's 1 more chalet on november ._."

& I've lost every contact in my hp, give me your number thru msn (:

I love PatriciaAng laaaaaaaaa! (:
I asked her to do audition license for me, & she told me she want go sleep. & she kept saying bye & went offline. I login to my audition account, & she helped me do my license already! Lol. Damn happy lor! :D

Went to Sentosa today! Very sunny (:
Slept at 3.30am yesterday & woke up at 7am. I'm damn tired..
Went to bathe & prepared everything, leave house at 8.15am. Met Huikheng, Joseph, Julius & Wengsoon @ Aljunied Mrt. & we trained there, Met Calysta & Rayna at Harbourfront. Went to have our breakfast @ Vivo. Left Vivo to Sentosa at 10am. Didn't stay in the water for long. & i wore tanktop, now my tan got the tanktop pattern lor. Not nice. Stay in the water, played. & 2 hours later, i feel like vomiting when i'm in the water, so i get up & rest awhile, the sand is so hot la, all of us kept making noise :X
Went to bathe @ 1.30pm, & we left the place around 3pm. Went to Vivo with Rayna, Calysta, Huikheng & KelvinT & we caught movie, Butterfly Lovers I slept for 10 mins half way thru the show.. Cannot tolerate, cold & tired. Lol! The show lasted for 2 hours. We went to arcade for awhile & went out walk walk. Took train home at 9pm & KelvinT walked home with me.
3 Chalets during October & November, i'm not sure whether i'm going all not, but i'll go at least 2 (:
Pray hard that i dont have sunburn tomorrow!

Happy Birthday, Love (:

See the time, i'm still not asleep! (:
Was chatting & playing audition with Pat, HuiKheng & a guy(Pat's friend) earlier on.. I'm going to sleep now. I think i'm going to wake up around 2-3pm. Lol. Goodnight!

My life is upside down.

Forced myself sleep at 4.30am. Can't get to sleep. Dont know why either.
Suddenly i felt giddy yesterday, when i was walking to my room. But only lasted awhile.
Woke up at 1pm, nothing better to do. Went to bathe & i'm going to watch superband now. & Dad brought my phone go service already. Hope can take back asap.
I'm going to eat only 1 meal per day from now onwards.

I don't bear to let go.

I kept myself damn busy today.
Woke up at 11.30am watched tv, used com, went to bathe & took at nap at 2.30pm, woke up at 4.30pm, watched tv, eat my dinner & plan holiday trip with family. Maybe end of this month or next month i'm going, i wanna go asap. I dont wanna stay here. I want to go other country & enjoy myself. I want to stop thinking about those problems that are making me headache. I want to run away from all this problem. I dont wanna solve it. I'm not a strong/brave girl, i can't face all this problems. I'm always hiding from this type of problems.. I dont know what to do.
Mommy mommy see this k } i want go oversea & a birthday chalet next year! Love you, mommy (:
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Stanley, i die die also won't tell you what happen to my nose one ._."

11 October, 3am .

If you still love her, go back to her. I dont mind. Like what i told you, you belong to her. Now i'm the one giving up, stepping out in this relationship, asking you to go back to her. I'm letting go of everything now. If i knew, 3 of us will get hurt, i won't involved in this relationship, & i never will. I'll only let myself to be hurt, one is better than three isn't it? I'm letting go of those plans we'd made. I'm giving back you your freedom, you can smoke or say vulgar whenever you like. I've got lots of things that's kept in my heart, I didn't say out, i kept saying nothing. I dont want to make a big fuss over it. If i know, there'll be an end in this relationship, i won't step into this relationship. Once i thought i was strong, i'll not break down no matter what, but i broke down today. I feel like crying, but i force myself not to. Yesterday night i lied to you, i told you i wanna go sleep, but i didn't cos i know, I'll sure scold you for nothing, so i chose to put down the phone & told you i wanna go sleep. I'm trying to tolerate my attitude already. How i wish i can sleep & never be awake. Why did love exist in this world? Ask me for my private blog, i'll give, there's nothing to be secretive already. Some friends asked me to give up, they dont wanna see me like this. Yet another group of friends asked me to persevere on no matter what. & now it's the time that i should learn to be independent, making my own decisions. Should i let go, should i hang on? I dont know. I feel like dying right now.

Should i go for my nose surgery? Minor one, but i'm afraid. I've delayed for few months already. I dont want to see the doctor, i dont want go hospital, i dont want to go back for check up everymonth, i dont want to eat medicine & i dont want to go for nose surgery, but i'm afraid that my sickness will come back someday if i dont go for the surgery & i dont wanna loss of blood! Sometimes i'm already feeling giddy & i know i'll faint one day, i didn't tell my family, i don't want them to be worry, isit i didnt have much blood? Confused. Let me die instead. Don't ask me what happen, close one will know.
Thanks K Laopeh for cheering me up, you're the one who always be there for me.

Labels: I love you still..

Give up, yes, i gave up.
Told K Laopeh about it, told him i wanna give up. & his reply was, why is you again? I dont even know what to reply. I'm confused. I'm sorry K Laopeh, i lied to you that i didnt cried on the phone.. How How?!
I wrote all my feelings down in my private blog.

Edited, 10:30 PM

Sorted things out with ~~Baby,~~ wonder why i still call him ~~Baby~~? I'm used to it already la. Lol. Maybe i still need sometime. I got no confident that this relationship will last long, but still i hope it'll last long. I dont want shout, scold & make you teared anymore. I'll think about it very carefully.
没有人能了解我现在的心情.

Song changed!

Just now the postman came pressing my door bell & my bag had already arrived!! (:
I'm going rebond soon, Elena & Huikheng is going too. I'll update when i'm back! :D

EDITED, 11:20 PM

I'm back from the salon long ago, but i'm lazy to update. Hehe. K, i've already cut my fringe slanted & rebond my hair , now it's straight, totally straight :D Went rebonding with Elena, Huikheng & KelvinT. Took almost 6 hours to do our hair.
I hate the chemical smell, damn disgusting can. Make me so hard to breathe. & now the chemical smell still linger on my hair. 3 days cannot wash hair ley!!
Oh, & i can't highlight purple, the hairdresser say need to bleach & my hair will be spoilt, so i choose reddish brown instead. Maybe i'm going to highlight next 2 weeks.
& my fucking handphone spoilt!! Damn dulan lor. Just nice leave house that time spoilt, lucky i brought another hp out! Grrrrr.

I cherish this relationship, thanks for giving me the happiness that i longed for. Hope that we'll be able to last long. Sorry that i showed you attitude, shouted at you & saying hurtful things to you when i'm angry. But, you didnt shout/scold me back. In fact you told me, you'll be there for me. Thanks for finding time, accompany me everyday although sometimes you're tired after your work, reminding me to eat & asking me to sleep early. I love you ♥

Just reached home, went to TPY just now. Shopped around & went to find my aunty. She's working there. I dont know why this few days i can't shop for long. My leg will be damn sour. Hehe, I think i'm getting older & older. I'm going to rebond my hair tomorrow, with HuiKheng. I dont think i'm going Sentosa on friday, my hair cant touch water for 3 days! I'm so tired now.

Went to meet Patricia & co at Aljunied mrt. & we rush down to Bugis, watched The House Bunny. NC 16 show, kinda funny. Worth watching (:
After movie, we went back to Aljunied, met Elena & Alisa. Went to eat steamboat at Beach road. Damn full lor. We finished eating at 7pm, & i think it's kinda early to go home. So we went to Kallang Leisure Park, played arcade! we spend more than 50 bucks there. to catch pathetic 4 bears. Went home at 10pm, Cal's dad send us to Kallang MRT & we took train home.
I'm so bored now, Baby is sleeping already, tomorrow he's going to work. Going wake him up at 4.30am, & tomorrow i'm going to accompany mom to TTSH for check up.

Lastly , HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY, PATRICIA.

HOLIDAY LO! :D
I can't believe that i've already graduate.

Computer paper is easy (: Finally no more paper! Holidays for 3 months! Maybe i'm wanna enjoy for 1 month & work for 2 months. Collecting result at December, teacher say if dye/highlight hair must spray black ._." I'm going to rebond my hair after this week & highlight my hair 2 weeks later, purple purple (:
Going for movie & steamboat later, celebrate Pat's birthday in advance. I'm tired now, feel like sleeping, but they're meeting at 2pm. Slept for half an hour after finished doing my paper (:

Someone cannot highlight hair ley :X

Woke up at 1pm, damn tired, slept at 5.45am i think .. I'm not sure either, haha.
Woke up, prepared & went to meet Huikheng & JeeAnn. Took bus to PP again. I bought my Mango Tee. I saw 1 tanktop, damn nice, i think i'm buying it soon (:
& I'm watching Superband now, Tomorrow having CPA paper, i didn't study at all! & i'm going to tomorrow night! Last paper lo! (:

Quarrel spoil both mood. & iloveyou baby (:

Finally i've time to pack my cosmetics, if not my cupboard will be damn messy, & there's 2 boxes in my cupboard, more neat than before (:

I slept at 6am today, waited for you-know-who to end work.. Luckily i slept during evening yesterday. Sis kept waking me up in the morning, but failed! Haha. She asked me accompany her to eat, & i kept saying later. I woke up at 12pm.

Ate lunch, & used computer awhile. Mom came back at 1.30pm, went to bathe & Mom, sis & I took train & bus to Parkway. Ate dinner there, i didn't eat much, no appetite. Told my mom when i plan to have baby & stuffs.

Aftermath, went to shopping (: Went to Watson & I bought 1 loreal concealer & 1 top from CottonOn. Went to Giant, bought my pink FBT. & now i've 4 FBT at home. I want another purple/red FBT..

Dad came to fetch us home after that.

Reached home, pack my cupboard. & i realised that my cupboard is full! 4 door cupboard somemore. Die, i think i need a bigger size cupboard :X

8pm, went pasarmalam with sis. Nothing much. Reached home at 8.40pm (:

I'm thinking, should i open a private blog?

I'm going to bathe now & paint my nails later! BYE.

1 more paper to go! :D
Something happen yesterday night. Terrible. Forget it, i dont want to mention it.
Maths paper 2 today, easier than paper 1 lor! Go home straight away after the paper. My cramps are killing me.
Kept repeating Better In Time, I love this song.
I've got nothing to blog ._.
Cramp cramp, go away please... ):

EDITED. 12AM

I just woke up, I'm like owl. Lol!
Slept from 6.30pm to 10.30pm, now i'm waiting for ** work to end. So long lo ):
Actually going down slack with friends, but i dont wanna let ** worry, so end up sleeping at home.
I'm going to watch my perfect cut now! Bye (:

If you don't know me well, just shut the fuck up.